quoy ♥ (quoy) wrote,
quoy ♥
quoy

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i'm so much deeper than i appear to be.
there's so much more than meets the eye.
there's so much that i kno should die in my life.
but yet i give a breath again, and allow it to stay alive.
yeah, the feelings i got for him,
according to others & even me @ times should've died,
but somehow, i donno wha i am, if i let it die.
it's fucked up how i'm lost and confused,
it's fucked up how i feel used.
it's fucked up how he's like a drug,
one second i'm high in heaven,
and the next i feel abused...
if love is this way,
i want it AND hate it.
if love is this way,
i'll leave it AND take it.
how can i blame his ass for taking advantage,
when i'm the one who put myself on this payment,
a payment of love, hurt, and pain..
a payment of shit, i want ..
but at the same time, wish i'd never have again.
he fucks me up, like a bottle of vodka,
i drink and drink, and at the same time, tell him to stop.
i'm backwards as shit, i don't kno what i want,
i kno i want him beside me,
i want him to stop runnin...


if i'm beautiful to you,
you say i'm what you want?
THEN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!

(yal like how that sentimental poem, had such a HORRIFIC UNSETTLING ENDING don't yal?!) -- i'm half sleep & drugged up off of medicine...don't mind me.

and yes, i kno this is NOT private. :)
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